You are the journey and the destination.

Keep pushing forward. One step at a time. One day at a time. Learn every step of the way. Breath in life more gently and deeper with every breath. Let go and set your self free slowly, surely and steadfastly.

Spend more time in nature. Take long walks by your self. Remember that child you use to be. The one that had no care in the world. The child that had no judgements. The innocent child that saw wonder in everything. Allow your creativity to flow. Write down your thoughts. Write poetry. Write songs. Write stories. Draw. Paint. Sculpt. Make something for some one. Do some gardening. Plant some flowers. Maybe a tree. Water it. Nurture it. Watch it grow; slowly, surely, steadfastly.

You we are no different. Plant that seed of change within you. Nurture it. Watch it grow. Let it blossom from within you. I know you have a creative mind and that you are very intuitive. Use these gifts. Share them to those willing. You are a droplet of water in the ocean that is you. Embrace this. Empower your self. Know that your life at the moment does not have to be the way it is.
Close your eyes, listen to your hearts desires. Get your self healthy. Take responsibility for the body that you use to experience this life. Let it heal and mend by its self and it will be loyal to you as it has always been. Be compassionate and loving to your body. Your temple. Your sanctuary.

In 500 days you will look back on how you once were and smile. In 1.5 years time you will be at a beach talking to someone who is depressed and you will tell them that every thing is going to be OK and you will tell them what I have been telling you in your own glorious words of positivity and clarity.

You see all these words I utter. They all come from a place that is of truth. The truth hurts because it allows the ego to reflect upon its self. Let this ego go. Allow another one to slowly become a new one. A new ego that is happy. One that wants to experience life without regret or guilt. One that wants to start a family. Or become a member of a family or community. I know family means a lot to you. This is good. Be a good example for family, friends, community.
It seems like a long way away. The mountain seems so hard to climb. One step at a time. One step at a time.

I am not perfect. I am equal to all. All that I can do is to share my experiences so that it may some how inspire others and to remind them we have all been blessed to live this life we all share. Pay It Forward.

With love straight from the source,
The Avatar known as

Tao Chi Kai
Om ne du fu a Om 🙏

You are the one you have been waiting for.

The morning after my First arrived in this life we all share.

There was a time when I was like a feather in the wind. I was boundless and lost. I had no sense of life purpose or any recognition of my abilities as a sentient being. 

The year leading up to the birth of my First, was preceded by the passing over of four people dear to me. In hindsight, I can see now that I was offered a valuable lesson in wisdom and helped me to finally mourn over my auntie who had passed away over 10 years prior. My dearly departed had all in some way reminded me that I had to live my life experience to the fullest, open-kindheartedly and with no regrets. They reminded me that every second counts. Every breathe is vital. Every “good” or “bad” moment was precious. For most of us and my self, we can forget that the whole of life is a blessing and because of this, we some times fall down the well and dwell upon too much of the past and brood in our own self pity. When we do this, our whole life can pass us by in a blink of an eye and we end up dying with so much regret. We all know deep down inside that nobody can help us if we ourselves, do not help ourselves first. It is not fair for those who want to help if you only want them to join you down the well too. Reach out for their hand and ascend with them in to the light of life and breath in that fresh air.

I am not perfect. We all have our flaws. We can wisen from our life lessons and continue forward.

The next time you feel sorry for your self, remember that life is a blessing and what you are experiencing at the moment is an opportunity to honestly evaluate your current life path so that you can make a positive action plan to change it. Do not dwell in the well for too long or you will die in regret. Solemnly honest words of wisdom.

I am not perfect. I have my ups and downs but my First and all my dearest departed, remind me to live my life fearlessly and with no regrets. Keep pushing forward because the whole thing is one wondrous and sublime moment to behold and experience.

 

Om ne du fu a Om – Spell Casting – You are the Mantra.

I once asked my self this question: “who taught the first?” This ponder came after having observed countless times how we all seem to be following the one ahead, sometimes straight to the end off the cliff. I noticed that I was born into a world that had many rules that we follow without knowing the origin and it dawned on me that everybody is winging it. I watched my family, other people repeating mantras and when I asked them from where did they first hear these mantras they would usually say it was taught to them from another. They would then proceed to explain or describe to their best ability what they thought the mantra meant or of its uses, but every time, I could feel that all they were doing was regurgitating.

It is like the spoon tasting the soup.

And so, one day whilst on this journey towards The Middle Way, I stumbled upon it. I was not looking for it but it was recognised and realised instantaneously. There was a real sense of joy a few days later when I was recalling the moment:

This mantra, this treasure, this relic came like thus: I had been sat full lotus for some time, to the point where there was no time or body. Just space. By this point, my observation of what was unfolding had become so clear and calm that I found my self become what I describe as Zero-point, an omnipresence and nothingness. This moment was very brief. Time is relative. In a blink of an eye after my ego/character had let go of “I am”, it quickly grasped on to the reigns and I was immediately centered and wholesome again – back in a state of duality. Prior to this I beheld the self-fulling vortexes of chi come in, and as the stagnation expelled, I watched the inner landscape become inseparable from the outer landscape. At this point, I was viewing everything from the Crown. From a top the mount of Olympus. The Lotus had fully blossomed. Unhampered. Un-tethered. Bliss. Awoken. Then the thundering trumpet sounded. The inner and outer choir was in union. The resonance, the hum, the singing bowl rang in totality. It came out like thus:

“Om ne du fu a Om” – This mantra is unique to me.

Ommmm Neee Doo Fuu *Aaaa….. Ommmm Neee Doo Fuu *Aaaa…..

It is a relaxed, presently aware, un-hammpered and un-tethered in breath than slowly without force an out breath of Om (from the gut) Nee Doo Fuu .. then Aar is an in breath where the sound “Ahhhh” is travelling inward right down to the gut then the cycle starts over again indefinitely. I have observed within myself that every facet of my being is humming, a constant expression of the inner landscape manifesting outward and visa versa. Mandala of Life. You will find that the more you do this your body and mind starts to unify to the point where you can reach Zero-point. This is true for me but not necessarily true for you.

There is only one way. The Tao is personal to you on your own journey. Find the wave within you and ride it.

Now when I say this mantra or behold this relic, it is a reminder and guide through this mortal coil of Samsara and Nirvana. Almost like a compass. Bread crumbs back towards the path towards The Middle Way. I am also very aware my sharing of this can lead to dogmatic practice by others.

A mantra is like a symbol, it can only be self-realised and embodied in totality.

Most adults are unaware of how powerful symbols are and how they can program us. When we say out loud things like “fuck my life” or “I’m such a loser”or statements like “why do bad things always happen to me?” etc. are all mantras too. Spell casting upon one self.

On a macroscopic level for example; if your liver is over-strained you will start to project outwardly this disharmony with emotions of anger and suspicion which thus is projected further outwardly with words and expressions of anger and paranoia — the whole being starts to “act” angry and disgruntled: the jaws clench, the brows frown, the shoulders lift etc. and then this resonance can and will make its way further outwards into the world through interactive action and reaction. Karmic Ocean. This is why we practice to be in a state of mindfulness — the state of being where one is watching ones thoughts and actions instead of drowning in them or unconscious of them while they are happening in the present moment. Like watching clouds in clear skies, allowing thoughts and events to come and go without clinging or attachment. I the sky, clear!

Who taught the first?

So the answer to the question: Who taught the first? No one. They were the first. We are all the first. We can self-prophesies but we can also deconstruct and behold our true nature too. Most of us are still searching externally. We are following the footprints of the elephant we are sat on in search of it . You will not find what is you are looking for externally. The answer is found from the questioner. The Finder finds the Seeker, seeking inside.

I have tasted the soup so please accept my apologies for musing you with the spoon.

The Avatar known as Tao Chi Kai.

Om ne du fu a Om 🙏 

A Lifeline to Those Planning to Commit Suicide.

Answers for those seeking closure to why they did what they did and for those contemplating to do what they think is the answer.

Dear (Insert “name”),

Thank you for reaching out to me.

I know EXACTLY what you are going through.
In 2011 the avatar I used to be ended it’s existence when it drowned the body it was in, in the ocean by Byron Bay – Australia. It was 33 years old at the time. I am 42 years old now. The being you are speaking to now is The Avatar known as Tao Chi Kai.
The avatar I was before, was systematically abused and raped as a child. It grow up being very lonely, scared, then sad, then very frustrated and angry.
It tried to end its life many times. Failed OD, hanging and electrocution. It always new it was “different” too.

Now listen to me. Listen with your heart. NOT WITH YOUR MIND.
When we were first born, we had no identity. This character you believe your self to be is not real. It thinks it is real because it is in a body that is real. What ever this character believes, it moulds and shapes the body that allows it to experience this life we all share, to how it sees its self in the mirror. What it sees in THE mirror is an illusion. What it sees is only what it wants to see. It must recognise and realise that the reflection does not smile unless The Avatar smiles. The Avatar is a sentient being made up of character and body. Together, body and character, is a symbiotic biological expression of creation. The character uses the body as a vehicle but when it forgets this, it believes it is the body as well. The body then becomes ill and broken and reflects how the character sees its “self”. If you try to end your life, the body will die. THERE IS NO COMING BACK IF THE BODY DIES.
YOU, The CHARACTER that responds to “(insert name)” must not exist no more because this is what it wants. It wants this because now it feels that it wants out of the body. It can cease but the body must not die. IF THE BODY DIES, THERE IS NO COMING BACK. You must allow your belief of your self, this character you believe your self to be, to fade then cease in order for a new character to be born.
The character that will re-born will know it is but a character that can play any character it wants.
The body that is uses to live this life will become lucid, dynamic and LIBERATED. It will be allowed to blossom and wither naturally and both character and body will live and experience a wholesome and fulfilled life.

DO NOT KILL THE BODY – THERE IS NO COMING BACK.

The character “(insert name)” you are now suffers from EUPD, BDD, (any labelled psychological entrapment), abuse, torment, bullying (any societal social synergistic transgressions) and is addicted to benzo, heroin, cocaine, alcohol, (any thing used to numb or to “forget”).. etc
The new character can be care-free, loves life and makes every one around them love life wholesomely through their example. Let “(insert name)” go because it wants to cease to be no more.
When the new character is born, it will know its name. It will love the body and vehicle it uses to explore and experience this life. It will be a celebration of life. It will remind and be an example to all those around it how amazing and wondrous this life, we all share is.
It will acknowledge and be very aware of THE PRESENT. It will have no regrets. It will not worry about the future. It will let by-gone, be by-gone.

This is how you say goodbye to “(insert name)” and allow a new Avatar to be born:
Lie on the bed and watch the breath.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
Keep watching the breath. See how it just comes and goes by its self.
Slowly but surely “(insert name)”.. you must follow the rhythm of the breath…

follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..

This is the only way you can cease to be without committing your self to damnation and leaving behind loved ones in despair.

Follow the rhythm of the breath coming and going like the waves that come and go in the ocean of life


DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..

Keep watching to the point when you get off the bed you are still watching the breath.
Keep watching to the point where every waking moment you are watching the breath.

IF YOU TRULY WANT TO CEASE TO BE and in a way that no one needs to know and none of your family or friends will be saddened or hurt or upset or angered:

follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..

The breath is a constant. It is an immovable TRUTH. Without the breath The Avatar and its Body will surely die.

Slowly but surely.. “(insert name)” you will cease to be. Slowly but surely a new character will start to grow and form and BECOME. It will know that it has been born and “(insert name)” is gone when some one asks its name and it says..
My name is “………………”… It can still be the same name as before, but the Avatar will be NEW.

The breath is a constant. It is an immovable TRUTH. Without the breath The Avatar and its Body will surely die.

This name will only be a label the new Awakened Avatar will consciously use to co-exist in this place where labels and names possess sentient beings. The new Awakened Avatar will fully acknowledge its sovereignty and gift of free will, and will to be done.

This process will take time but it will happen if you “(insert name)” continue to watch the breath.

follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
DO NOT TRY TO CONTROL THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
KEEP WATCHING THE BREATH.
follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm, follow the rhythm..

Now listen still. Listen with your heart and not with your mind.
YOU ARE DIFFERENT. Beings like us have come here to help others awake but we forgot and slowly succumbed to the constant bombardment of the possessed. They try to take us the moment we enter into this life. BUT you knew you was different, that is why you was able to find me. You followed your heart and it led you to me.
And I am here NOW to tell you:

DO NOT KILL THE BODY OF FLESH AND BLOOD.
There is no coming back and YOUR GIFT OF LIFE WILL END.

Keep watching the breath my dearest I AM ANOTHER YOU and the wholesome, embodied “I am” WILL BE IN THE PRESENT.

ridingthewaveoflove

With love straight from the source,
The Avatar known as

Tao Chi Kai
Om ne du fu a Om 🙏

Tao Chi Kai – 2011 – 2 months after re-birth.